Friends and Seekers!
It’s Alarice and I had a thought regarding new beginnings and what they mean to those of us who have been exposed to abuse. For me my new beginning meant FREEDOM!
Freedom to think and be at peace- after so many years of have my emotions manipulated and tossed back and forth as though a very bad game of chess, the moment I was able to walk away with nothing but my children and a new beginning I was overwhelmed. I remember just crying. Each one of those, hot tears fell from my eyes like hot diamonds. Oh how much of a price I paid, for having lost some much time in a situation which had caused me some much pain and agony!
Next, after weeks of trying to put it all together, I began to embrace my new beginning, I began to develop a relationship with the girl, young woman and finally the woman within me. I continued by working hard to become independent and free of the conflicting feelings of wanting to fall into replaying the abuse with my abuser! I am so excited about my breakthroughs and I share that as I would love to be a part of the breakthroughs in your lives. I admit, I do have fleeting moments, but not moments of what could have been. More like moments of processing. I sought counseling and then I sought my purpose.
Not so simplistic, but for the sake of keeping my story short, basically those are the steps I took. I encourage your first steps to a better life, for that what we are entitled to. Join me in indulging in your personal change and betterment.